Where I'm at right now is this, I can go to grad school and be fine with that, but I would end up taking out 72,000 in loans on top of what I have right now. That's a whole bunch of money... like a house in Michigan.
And I love Engineering, but it's not my only interest, and I could totally be happy in a lot of jobs, and I feel like if I spend all this money getting this degree I'm going to get trapped doing that for the rest of my life to justifying spending all that money.
Another thing, obviously USC is a great university, I could not go, focus my energy on getting an engineering job, if that's what I decide, and then get them to pay for me to get another degree.
I don't know, growing up on the poor side of things make me so hesitant to go 72,000 into debt if I'm not 100% committed. I feel like I'd be better off making money and getting my existing debt paid off, and work on saving money to help my mom out.
The thing that's stopping me right not is that I came out here on the pretense that I was going to USC and I feel like I'm just going to disappoint everyone if I don't go. I hate feeling like a letdown. Ugh, I have two interviews tomorrow, we'll see how they go.
I guess the main thing that would make this decision easier would be knowing what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. So that's what I'll ponder tonight I suppose. Sorry about this whiny post haha I hate blogging all about me and my struggles haha.