Saturday, October 27, 2012

I'm Not Your Hero

WHOA, so been a while eh? I forget about this blog often but then events happen that remind me why I should never forget about this blog and especially the people that I met through this blog. But let's quickly recap (gasp! Shall we include photos!) what has happened since my last post (bigger GASP! in June (eek!)

1) I got to be a bridesmaids in one of my best friends weddings. I don't think there's any kinder person in the entire universe and I'm blessed to know such wonderful people, [hint: this will be a recurring theme, so if you're not in the mood for happy happy joy joy you better quit reading right now.] The trip was amazing, I got to see friends and family and really be reminded of where I came from, AND! I got to try on a superbowl ring, which is always fun. Look! Here's a photo!

2) After I got back it was work as usual for a bit and then I got to work the MTV VMA's as part of the stage managing crew and it was an amazing experience. I got to help set up for an awesome show and meet tons of awesome people and watch some great performances up close and personal. I got to talk to Rebel Wilson again and make some awesome new friends whilst getting paid! Talk about living the dream. (Look! Another photo!)

3) Took a trip to Santa Barbara, went to Disney with friends, sadly that was for a going away shindig. Birthday parties and a new roommate. It's been a whirlwind. 


I met Tegan and Sara, for anyone who's read this blog at all I'm sure you know how awesome this was for me. I found out they were playing at Conan and asked my friend there if she could do anything and oh boy did she pull through. She got me into rehearsals! WOOT! Then got me a VIP pass for the show! YAY! Then told them about me, so they invited me backstage! WHAT!?!? After talking to them for 15 minutes Sara invited me to come join the contest winners before their show at the Staples Center and listen to new songs before they're released! RIDICULOUS! I still can't believe how crazy life can be. And of course, here's a photo of that. 

4) As if that wasn't enough of a reminder as to how great life is I then got to take a trip to NYC with an amazing friend and meet up with more badass people while on vacation. I started by meeting up with a friend from MSU who was kind enough to let us stay at her place (thanks Lauren!) it was awesome to get some Spartan spirit back in my life. A few days into the trip I met up with my friend Julie Klam (who just released her new book! [which is amazing])! My friend Charlotte (who is amazingly talented!) and my love LOLA (most of you are familiar with her badassness). I got to see some ex-coworkers, and meet up with my friend Sarah and tour Julliard and take in a show. This trip was amazing and getting to jam this many friends into this short of a time made me realize how extremely fortunate I am to have awesome people in my life. Lola in particularly, when we stayed with her was such a welcoming presence into my life right now. I'm currently going through having a friendship end (not because I wanted it to) and I have no idea actually why it's ending. It's really upsetting to me to lose a friend. Being an only child my friends are my family. So having someone like Lola (who I met through blogging) be just an incredibly wonderful human being means so, so, much. Photos from this entire trip can be seen at

5) Now I'm back in LA waiting for Halloween and trying to prep my costume and try to not let this new found lack of a friendship bother me, I just wish I knew if it was my fault, something I'd done. 

On that note I'm going to leave you with this song, which was one of the songs we heard on the bus with T&S. I'm Not Your Hero

Thursday, June 7, 2012


As I sit here, procrastinating packing for my trip to Michigan next week, I can't help but think about how last year that statement would have read "As I sit here, procrastinating for my trip HOME next week" but the realization I've come to is that Paw Paw isn't really my home anymore.

What does it mean? What makes a place home? It's definitely not family, because, although mine is scattered about the country, California houses none of them. Is it friends? Because I have those all over. It's not a house per say, I live in an apartment in a Russian neighborhood with a goat down the street. I honestly don't know what it is, or even the moment when Los Angeles became my home. But last month, fellow blogger, Kevin was visiting and as we were visiting my friend at his bar overlooking the city I honestly COULD NOT even think about living somewhere else. Yeah, sure, LA is smoggy and traffic-y and expensive, but it's also beautiful, and exciting and so vast and different. 

Recently I've gone back to the old, but good, Franklin, by Paramore. It's the best feeling when a song perfectly expresses you thoughts. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm very excited to go back and I'm stoked to get to hang with the people who are left in Michigan, but more ideally, I'd like them all in California, with me. But at the moment, the places I go, the people around me, and the possibilities before me are perfect, and I wouldn't have it any other way. 

Does anyone else get this feeling? Where did you move to/from? What makes a location a home for you? 

Here's a link to the title song: Franklin

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Starring Role

Is it bad that the main reason I'm writing this is to tell everyone to go get (legally or illegally) the new Marian and the Diamonds album "Electra Heart" IT IS SO GOOD. The song that I've titled this post after "Starring Role" is so great, I cannot stop listening.

After I got to the page I realized it's been so long since I've blogged that the entire layout has changed?!? What the eff? I don't know how to hyperlink my title anymore, is that not possible? Anyways, I wanted to pop in and talk about how crazy the connections we in the blogger world can form are. Recently, a fellow blogger/twitter/facebook friend came to stay in LA for the weekend and we had a blast, and throughout the weekend it occurred to me how some of my actual real life friends have made little to no effort to visit since my move and yet, here was a fellow internet-er who came and had a wonderful time in Hollywood-land.

And I got to thinking about Mr. O, who knows me better than 40% of the actual people in my everyday life. And Lola Lakely who I love more than most of the alcoholic beverages we consume whenever we hang out. And Jamie, who, God bless her heart, mails me more cookie filled care packages than my own mother. These connections we form are so strong, and while I was thinking about it, I realized it's because online we can be SO SELECTIVE, we basically form these tight knit groups of people who are just like us, and who like the same things. And fuck me if that isn't the most genuinely awesome thing! That something people accuse of making our generation so "distant" can bring us some of the most awesome relationships. I fucking love it, and love those of you who stick around for my random ramblings. 

Since I can't figure out the hyperlinking in the title, here is Starring Role!

P.S. I really am trying harder and wanted to clear out the blogs I wasn't following so much and find some more awesome ones to follow and form some connections with, PLEASE, put some suggestions in the comments for people you think I'll love!